Be kind to Allah

Hiiii, whoever you are, never think badly of Allah. I know you're overthinking, but isn't like that. Please try to have husnudzon (goodwill) first towards Allah once in a while, even though it's a bit difficult, but be sure that you will get the best from Allah. Allah will never disappoint His servants, believe me, whatever you ask for, Allah will give you. But remember, not everything you ask for is good for you. So, the point is that Allah only wants to give the best for His servants.

When I want something, I always remember this one word of Allah "It may be that you dislike something, though it is good for you, and it may be that you like something, though it is bad for you. Allah knows, while you do not know". (QS, Al-Baqarah: 216).

Whatever your prayer is, your desire, just ask Allah first, never be insecure first, Allah is actually happy if there are His servants who often ask for something. But if it is not granted, don't be angry, just think that you don't deserve it, and Allah has a backup that is no less good than what you want. 

In addition to the above, you have also had a difficult job desk/problem. When you get it, you immediately say "why does it have to be me?", "Oh my God, why is it so hard/difficult", "why i'm always the one being ordered around". From now on, after you read this short writing, don't say that again, maybe if you forget or say it in your heart, it's okay. 

But try to think again, Allah once said that for example He will not give a burden beyond the ability of His servants, try to check Surah Al-Baqarah verse 286. There Allah has said that "Allah does not burden a person but according to his ability", 

Do you understand what I mean by that? So, by Allah giving you a jobdesk that you think is difficult, it means that Allah knows that you can complete the job or problem in your own way. You should also be grateful to always be able to overcome/complete the jobs or problems that you face, because without Allah's help you can't solve them all. You should also be grateful because maybe out there there are many people who can't necessarily solve the job/problem that you face, so you have a value that other people don't have, and that's the positive side.